Paula Badosa is back in the news after appearing on Mario Suárez's podcast and confessing her recent thoughts there. Clearly affected by her recent results, the news is that she herself doesn't know if she will travel to Roland Garros.
And maybe it's the smartest thing given the circumstances. Paula Badosa has been seeking her best form in recent months, but it's evident that the results have not come. Now that her ranking forces her to go through the qualifying stage and her mind is asking for a break, the Spanish player may opt for a career hiatus until she has regained all the energy she possesses. Will she play at Roland Garros or watch it from home? For now, nothing is official, but it's clear that both options are currently under consideration in her mind.
How is Paula Badosa?
"Obviously, speaking from a sports perspective, I'm not as well as I would like or as I'm perhaps used to. It's been a tough year in that regard, lots of injuries. And then when the body seems to be responding, mentally I've also lost a lot of confidence in myself. I think that from tough situations and difficult moments, you rebuild yourself, you become stronger. Right now, professionally, I'm not where I would like to be, that's a reality."
A very tough period on the court
"I've been fighting hard for five months, but the matches are not going my way, I've never had so many consecutive defeats. In Madrid, I spent a lot of energy battling against my mind; it has been exhausting months, there was a point in the third set where I completely shut down. I had a conversation with my team, and I think now I need some time to stop, see what's going on here and gather strength to come back. Right now, I feel like I'm wearing out, though I don't know if it will be two, three, or four weeks. In fact, it's been two days, and I'm already thinking about training."
Paula Badosa unsure about her participation in Roland Garros
"I don't know if I'm going, honestly. I'm confessing a secret, I'm opening up, it will depend solely on whether I have that strength. I know that if I have that strength, things will work out. It's more mental; I've suffered quite a bit physically, but for the past month, I've been doing well physically, for the moment, in that aspect."

Assimilating a defeat, the challenge to overcome
"I've been in this career for many years, the other day someone told me, it's been 11 years in this career. But it's incredible that I still haven't learned how to lose, it's something that overwhelms me. I take it very personally, winning or losing means that I'm worth more or less as a person. I try to look at it with perspective, separate the tennis Paula from the person Paula, try not to treat each match as if it were a matter of life or death."
Nocturnal activity and difficulty sleeping
"I don't sleep, it's very difficult for me. People who send messages at night know that I'll respond immediately, they know me and know that I'm awake. I usually sleep 2-3 hours, and by 6:00 in the morning, I'm already awake and out of bed. I've been working on the mental aspect for many years, but then I also try to step out of that professional side and do other things in the professional field."
Her toughest moment
"I think now, perhaps I'm doubting more, I have more fears about everything that's happening in my professional life. Now is the time where I'm suffering the most. I've been working with my psychologist for years; I believe in that person who is with you day by day. Thankfully, I have their support; the mind is the only part of the body that you can't stop; when it goes, it's very difficult to stop those self-destructive thoughts."
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