Eugenie Bouchard hung up her racket last season at just 30 years old. It took her a little longer to give her first interview under proper conditions since then. The Canadian speaks loud and clear in this conversation, exposing some wounds.
Wounds of all kinds, from those left by success to those self-inflicted. It is worth hearing Eugenie Bouchard provide certain details about her journey without any hesitation, acknowledging the moments when pressure got to her and highlighting the big lessons her experience taught her. The former World No. 5 chose the Tennis Insider Club to connect with the audience, a platform where most players manage to reach that level of transparency that fans always appreciate. We highlight the most interesting points.
Every girl's dream
"My goal was always to win a Grand Slam, so, in a way, achieving anything was something I expected, after all, we've been dedicating our whole lives to this. As soon as I started getting good results, they always asked me if I was surprised, not realizing that I've been doing this for 15 years. It's not like one day I woke up and decided to play tennis out of the blue. It’s funny how people forget all the sacrifice behind reaching that point. Likewise, I feel like everything happened too fast."
Managing success at a young age
"I always felt I could achieve great things, but for them to happen so soon was probably a bit surprising. It felt good, but you also have to process things. At such a young age, having to read all that when things are going well… the truth is, you need time to process it. Years later, I am still processing everything that happened, even today, I am dealing with it with my therapist."
The monster of expectation
“After performing very well in 2014, 2015 was a very tough year for me. It is hard because we didn't talk about mental health like we do now, but at that time, I was struggling, I just wasn't comfortable saying anything. Even admitting that you had a therapist was weird, people thought you were crazy or weak. I am happy that now it is a completely normal topic, I am glad that things have changed, but I went through a very difficult time and I couldn't talk about it."
Eugenie Bouchard confesses how all the external noise affected her
"People take for granted that you are going to win, especially after a great result. They tell you not to read the internet, but they fine you 15,000 if you don’t attend a press conference. Even if you delete everything from your phone, you end up finding out, it always reaches your ears, it can come to you through a friend or a family member. The thing is when you win, you can do whatever you want, but when you lose, everyone analyzes every move you make. I guess it's part of human nature."
Memories of her Wimbledon 2014 final
"I haven't watched that final again, I just can't, it's too painful. Maybe it was a blessing to lose so clearly because when you are so close and it slips away, you keep replaying in your head what you could have done better on a break point or any other situation. At that moment, I was relying a lot on my confidence, I believed in myself, it was a mix of happiness and relief after so much effort. But yes, in the final, I was nervous, much more than in other matches. I remember being in the locker room and my hands were sweating, when my hands never sweated. That day everything had much more weight, I think I couldn't have done enough to win, plus Petra was incredible, when she is at that level, she was unstoppable."

What does she regret in her career?
"In 2015, I made a coaching change that I now regret. After that final, my life became chaotic: media attention, sponsors, and changes everywhere. I was working with Nick Saviano, my tennis dad, so parting ways with him removed my most stable element. Everything around me changed, it didn't help in the short term, but there was also the weight of expectations. Before, if I won, it was incredible, and if I lost, it was normal; now, if I won, it was expected, and if I lost, it was a disaster. Anything other than reaching the final was considered a failure."
Advice for teenage Bouchard
"If I could give advice to my 15-year-old self, it would be: don't listen to the external noise. Just listen to your team, your close people, the ones you can trust. How can someone who only knows 2% of your life give opinions on decisions that affect you 100%? It's hard not to fall into that, so you shouldn't base your decisions on what people who are not part of your life think. There is a phrase I love: 'Never take advice from someone who doesn't have the life you would want to live.' I think it's very true."
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